Have you ever felt like you were losing your mind? Like…losing your flipping mind!!
Shortly after my first child was born, I found myself back in the work place. I had just taken 6 glorious weeks to be home with my newborn baby. We rocked. We ate. I sang. He cried. We walked. We visited. We slept. We walked the halls at all hours of the night.
I. Was. In. Heaven.
I returned back to work like we had planned with a best case scenario. A grandparent was watching our baby. My employer allowed me to go at lunch and check on things (like I needed too, it was for ME). I was off work on Fridays by noon. Great job. Understanding boss. Happy baby.
Only, I found myself in turmoil. My mind was doing things I had never experienced before. I would forget where I was going when I was driving. I was forgetting phone numbers. I began to question myself at work which resulted in me triple and quadruple checking my assigned tasks. I cried myself to sleep. My mind felt like a heavy, black, wet blanket was draped over top, suffocating me and effecting my every thought.
After a conversation with my doctor, I realized that I was simply unhappy. I wanted to stay home and take care of my baby and it was just not going to happen for a while.
I’ll never forget how I felt during that time. Weak…controlled by my circumstances…frustrated…sad…scared.
Fast forward 20+ years later.
There have been other times I’ve felt out of control and powerless. I’ve felt unimportant, wondering if God was paying attention.
How about you? Right now. What are you going through that has you wondering what in the world is going on? What is causing you to feel like you may be losing your mind?! What are you facing that has you feeling weak, powerless, and maybe even a little unimportant?
These women in the Bible, God had his hands all over their lives. He worked through them to accomplish His purposes. Put yourself in their shoes for just a moment. Ask yourself if you are facing such tasks as these women did.
*In Genesis 21 Sarah bore a child at the age of 90. Labor at 90!
*In Numbers 26 Jochebed placed her 3 month old son in a basket and put him in a river for his own protection. She watched him float away.
*In the book of Esther, Esther risked her own life for the life of others, because she knew she had been placed in a position “for such a time as this”. She risked her life.
*In I Samuel, Hannah, whose womb had been closed up, prayed fervently for a son. When God granted her one, she placed him into the hands of the priest to be raised as she had promised. She gave her newborn away.
*In Matthew, Mary finds herself unwed, young and pregnant. She goes on to give birth to a man named Jesus. Unwed teenager…pregnant.
We who are in a relationship with Jesus Christ, we are strong! These women were strong! They didn’t just survive these challenges, they were able to look back and see purpose in them.
They were made in the image of God and so were we.
You CAN make it to the end of the school year.
You CAN single parent with excellence.
You CAN survive the divorce.
You CAN survive medical treatments.
You CAN survive the death of a loved one.
You CAN parent your strong willed child without harming them (I’m living proof of that!)
You CAN forgive, even when your trespasser doesn’t seek forgiveness.
You CAN overcome addiction.
You CAN lose or gain the weight that is making you unhealthy.
You CAN weather a winter season in your life and live to smell the flowers of spring!
You CAN! You CAN! You CAN!
“He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.”
noun \ˈstreŋ(k)th, ˈstren(t)th\
Simple Definition of strength
: the quality or state of being physically strong
: the ability to resist being moved or broken by a force
: the quality that allows someone to deal with problems in a determined and effective way
According to Merriam Webster, strength is a quality that allows us to deal with problems in a determined way.
He gives us this when we feel weary.
Are you weary today?
Let’s be determined! Set our minds to it. No giving up. Pressing on.
We CAN do this!
There has to be rain before there can be a rainbow.
We have to climb the mountain before we can enjoy the view.
There must be sickness before there can be healing.
We have to walk through the dessert before we can really appreciate the water.
That season of working my job while my baby was with someone else, it was just a season. I can look back and see that God was teaching me a few things.
I talked to Him more that year than I ever had.
I grew closer to my husband.
I learned a little more about trusting God’s plans.
And my baby…he was just fine.
We’ve all seen this quote-
“When life gets too hard to stand, kneel”
Let’s get on our knees and ask God to remind us who we are and whose we are. Let’s surround ourselves with those who will encourage us to keep pressing forward. Let’s be determined to walk through whatever it is we are walking through now with grace and confidence that comes with knowing that every good story has a beginning, a middle, and an end.
And oh, how sweet that last chapter of whatever struggle we are facing will be when we can turn the page, having grown a little closer to our Heavenly Father and having learned just how strong we really are.